Vince Grant - 'My Depression Is Always Trying To Kill Me'

Independent Spotlight is a continuing series on Stewart’s blog. The series revolves around independent artists and bands sending their music to Brett to review. No band is promised a positive review, and all music is reviewed honestly in an effort to better independent music.

In this edition of the Independent Spotlight, we delve into something rather unique: ‘My Depression Is Always Trying To Kill Me,’ the new album from Vince Grant. He classifies the record as ‘alternative indie gothic rock.’ That’s certainly different. The incredibly personal record is quite a treat, though, especially in regard to the single.

The single is ‘Melancholia,’ an ambient alternative rocker doused in reverb and atmospheric effects. It has the dark, moody feel of something out of the 1990s, but it adopts much more of a Goo Goo Dolls mentality. (Especially in regard to the vocal style and acoustic use.) The production, though, is what makes this song stand out. It’s a beautiful production gracefully performed by a very solid group. The percussion is on mark the whole way through, the growing synthesizers are aesthetically pleasing, and the use of the electric and acoustic guitar banter is marvelous.

Once you’ve heard ‘Melancholia,’ you’ve essentially got the jist of the rest of the EP. ‘Oceans II’ picks up where ‘Melancholia’ left off on a distinctively more pleasant note. This song is irresistibly terrific with a killer chorus. Grant’s vocals are perfect for this type of music and the song erupts around him in an astronomical fashion. It’s a bit of a wall of sound, which is quite wonderful.

Enter introspective lyrics, soft, silky synths, and immense feeling. ‘Edge of the World’ is the fantastic centerpiece to the EP. ‘I get so tired of being alone at the edge of the world,’ Grant emphasizes before a lengthy apology for ‘all that has happened’ while he has been ‘trapped in this body.’ As the title of the record suggests, depression and emotional thoughts are central to this content. ‘Edge of the World’ is the culmination of that emotion. It’s a beautiful, elegant, and painful track. You feel Grant’s pain and his sorrow, and that’s why it’s the best song on the album.

Musically, the electric riffs on ‘How Many Times You’ make it the musical highlight of the record. It also exits the softer sonic spaces of the previous tracks for a bit more of a rocker. Finally, ‘Sweet Addiction’ closes out the set. I’m not entirely sure where to start... It’s a ten minute epic reminiscent of ‘Street Hassle.’ (By that, I mean it seems to be broken into rather definitive movements.) The length of the song makes it ambitious, but it falls a bit short because it doesn’t have enough unique content to justify itself. It could have been one five minute track.

Vince Grant’s new EP, ‘My Depression Is Always Trying To Kill Me’ is one of the most emotional, personal records I’ve ever reviewed. On almost all counts, it succeeds in its endeavors and it’s a gorgeous experience. Grant puts it all out on the table on this EP, and that in itself is very admirable. Check the album out; it’s a winner.

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